tiggerprr’s scratching post

Wow, can’t believe it’s been over a month since I’ve posted. So much has happened…moved to Arkansas…had to pick a different house (long dumb story with a happy ending ~ I hope), Kenzie decided after 4 days of not trying to go live with Ken’s Mom, I didn’t stop her against my better judgement…you can’t make someone who insists on being miserable, and insists on everyone else joining them in their misery, try…Coby and I are staying in an extended stay hotel until the house closes next week. The finish line is in sight, at least as far as the house is concerned. Coby’s done a great job of trying to fit in and making friends already.

I’ve seen some really great friends and hope that it’s just the beginning of a happier life than the one we’ve been leading for the last 5 months. I can’t help but realize that Ken is watching us from where he is, and though I KNOW he’s not thrilled with some of the things that have transpired, I hope he understands, and I think he would. My life can’t be led in the shadow of a ghost or second guessing what I already know would be his wish. He’d want me, really want all of us, to be happy no matter the cost to dreams or hopes we shared.

I’ve found that some things, never change…and some things, change drastically…but in the end it all works out, even if it’s not as you planned or hoped for. It’s a simple lesson really, amazing that it takes 40+ years and a major life event to learn it.

I choose happiness…no matter what life throws at me.

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